Autumn

Autumn was "star student" last week. This means she got to bring in pictures to put on a billboard, art work and a questionare filled out about herself. Then on Friday, she explained it all in front of her class. Thankfully, I was able to make it. Erik was too! Should have seen her face glow when he walked in.

Of course, I don't have any pictures of it but her teacher loved all the baby pictures. It made me realize what a little girl she is now. Once those 2 front teeth are gone, she'll be all grown up. ok...ok..not really but it feels like that more and more each day.

She will still crawl up in my lap. Still cuddle up next to me when she sleeps. She even tries to "cry" when she gets a scrape, bump or cut. It is quite fine if she wants to cry but this cry is an attempted cry-like, "I am 3 and gonna have a melt down but am 6 and it's not really going to happen" type of cry.

She still has these same toes that are now just slightly bigger. Same little butt that she called ballons on her back and the same little giggely, smiley eyes.

I think the world knows that I would love to have another kiddo but probably won't. I had shy'd away from holding little ones for a few years because it was really hard to know I would never have another one of "my own". BUT-I am over that now. I LOVE holding babies!!! OMG, my little nephew Hudson!! I could hold him and watch him and stare at him for hours.

Children/life/babies are such miracles! I love watching them learn and I guess we don't see that as obviously with Autumn anymore. She seems so grown up but I know she is still learning..it's just counting by 2, 5, and 10s now instead of how to say her Ls or Rs or use the potty. I am sure there will be plenty of more firsts.

Once-before I had Autumn-I was at some airport killing time people watching. There was this lady with a baby in a sling, all tatto'd up, hair died black, long and goth. Maybe it was the sling that got me but I just thought..that is the parent I will be but I am SO not ready for that yet. I am not ready to have that baby strapped to my chest while I am carrying 3 other bags of stuff but I knew someday I would be. I have always wanted to be a parent more than anything else in the entire world. I remember telling my friends that when I do have a kid that they would probably never see me because once I had a kid, my life was ALL about that kid. They told me I was crazy...but that's the way it went and I wouldn't have it any other way! Ok, well...maybe she could have slept through the night before she was 3.

Here are some pics of her burning the sage the other night, all her Santa pictures and stuff.